Where there's a will, there's a way

: kokopoko; October 26th, 21:23

Why won't color printers print out only in black and white if I have a black and white photo? Half the photo is missing because I don't have color ink. Crazy.

I've been going through deviantart finding photos to print out and draw. There are some very very nice photos over there.

( don't open these at work )

Going to use this journal

: kokopoko; October 25th, 23:06

I think I'm going to start using this journal again. It will be good to get things out instead of staying awake at night.

My daughter is seriously UGH I don't know what to do with her. She vacillates between horrible/angry/bitch to normal/loving and I can't stand it. I feel like I'm on eggshells around her that if I say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing she'll scream at me and call a moron, say this is why she hates living here and that I'm a stupid moron.

I'm getting mistreated everywhere and it's so hard to read this book on emotionally abused women because I'm all over the book. I have an abusive mother, father, boss, coworker, ex and now my very own daughter is abusive to me. I can't believe this. She brings down her laundry at 10:30pm and tells me to do it because she has no clean clothes because I never do anything around the house. Just yesterday I cleaned the kitchen and part of the living room. I worked for 2 hours at work today. Daughter didn't pick up her dog's poop from the basement stairs or clean the kitchen floor like I asked her too. I poked her arm and told her not to call me a moron. She punched me in the stomach. I told her not to punch me and she said she didn't.

I'm in my own living hell. My life has gotten out of my control and I wonder if I ever had it.

My daughter won't go visit her dad on the weekends. Refuses. Says she's scared of him. She's mad that he was calling her out on her attitude. Plus she is legitimately scared of him as he told her his smoking was the only thing keeping him from killing her mother. Me.

I'm getting sick and tired of her. The counselor hasn't come over for a month because one of my cat's had FCV and died in 2 weeks from it. Highly contagious. Counselor has a cat. My daughter and I desperately need the counselor.

I have no money. I have so much medical debt, health insurance at $410 a month that my entire salary literally goes to bills. I would pay for food out of child support. Daughter's dad quit paying child support when she quit going to see him. My mother sends me gift cards to grocery stores and I have to tell her exactly what I bought and it has to be an approved item or she won't send me anymore money for food.

I scrounged around and found $11 to buy Daughter's mask for her Halloween costume to make her happy. Her happiness lasted 2 minutes.

I'm not even living my life. I think I'm just reacting to my daughter. My life sucks.

Cannes Festival

: kokopoko; May 19th, 22:12

This day was made bearable thinks to the overwhelming amount of photos and video of this hot muffin:

kokopoko

Where there's a will, there's a way

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